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I'm Ben Johnson, Warzone Kid. That's my shorthand for those of us whose childhoods were more like warzones and less like nurseries. I'm a child sex abuse survivor, and as an adult I live with Complex PTSD, Borderline Personality Disorder, I'm a recovering addict, bulimic, and binge eater.

This podcast is about my own quest to live my life, to learn and become what I am. I'm a Pilgrim on the Trail to the Western Lnds, the place of peace and wholeness.

We've got a long way to go, Pilgrim. Let's walk a few miles together.

Daylight's burnin'!

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