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I'm Ben Johnson, Warzone Kid. That's my shorthand for those of us whose childhoods were more like warzones and less like nurseries. I'm a child sex abuse survivor, and as an adult I live with Complex PTSD, Borderline Personality Disorder, I'm a recovering addict, bulimic, and binge eater.

This podcast is about my own quest to live my life, to learn and become what I am. I'm a Pilgrim on the Trail to the Western Lnds, the place of peace and wholeness.

We've got a long way to go, Pilgrim. Let's walk a few miles together.

Daylight's burnin'!

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Roman diplomats carried bread and sword - peace and war - in their togas when they met with their enemies. You can have either one, they would say. Choose wisely. We all carry war and peace with us, every moment. We are the ones who must choose wisely. Do we greet ourselves and the world around us in a stance of peace or in a stance of war?

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