A Pilgrim’s Progress
I'm Ben Johnson, Warzone Kid. That's my shorthand for those of us whose childhoods were more like warzones and less like nurseries. I'm a child sex abuse survivor, and as an adult I live with Complex PTSD, Borderline Personality Disorder, I'm a recovering addict, bulimic, and binge eater.
This podcast is about my own quest to live my life, to learn and become what I am. I'm a Pilgrim on the Trail to the Western Lnds, the place of peace and wholeness.
We've got a long way to go, Pilgrim. Let's walk a few miles together.
Daylight's burnin'!
Episodes

Nov 18, 2025
Nov 18, 2025
7 min
Roman diplomats carried bread and sword - peace and war - in their togas when they met with their enemies. You can have either one, they would say. Choose wisely. We all carry war and peace with us, every moment. We are the ones who must choose wisely. Do we greet ourselves and the world around us in a stance of peace or in a stance of war?

Nov 19, 2025
Nov 19, 2025
19 min
The last few videos have been about Zen, the first of three Pearls I carry in my pocket on the Trail to the Western Lands.
This one is about Healing Circles. I'm a volunteer circle keeper with Hidden Water, an organization that facilitates healing circles run by and for those effected by Child Sex Abuse: https://www.hiddenwatercircle.org/

Nov 20, 2025
Nov 20, 2025
9 min
Leave a comment! I'd love to hear from you! This video is about gratitude when you hit rock bottom, because you've finally got your feet on something solid.

Dec 11, 2025
Dec 11, 2025
15 min
I'd love to hear from you! Hows it all going for you? This one is about the third of my "Three Pearls of Healing" - Zen practice and healing circles are the other two.

Dec 11, 2025
Dec 11, 2025
17 min
This one is inspired by Hidden Waters' model of moving from harm to healing. It's been such a helpful thing in my own life. Leave a comment! I'd love to hear from you. How is it all going for you?

Dec 18, 2025
Dec 18, 2025
7 min
Recognizing the harm often feels like an epiphany. You've seen and acknowledged the reality of your life. But what happens after that?

Dec 18, 2025
Dec 18, 2025
7 min
How do we live? That's the question all us warzone kids face. The Jenga Tower of our psyches put back into a solid form, not a rickety mess of coping and denial.

Dec 22, 2025
Dec 22, 2025
16 min
As a guy living with BPD, here’s a little video about the role Zen practice plays in my life. Enjoy! I love hearing from you! Leave a comment and let me know how it’s all going for you.

Dec 22, 2025

Dec 23, 2025
Dec 23, 2025
1 min
That’s what I wanted to do when I first read the phrase restorative Justice on the Hidden Water website (https://www.hiddenwatercircle.org/) and then I learned better! I learned that restoring myself to wholeness is the only kind of Justice there is. 






